Thanksgiving 2013

It’s strange to think that 2013 is almost over.  It’s been a good year, getting back on my feet.  The divorce was finalized earlier this year and it doesn’t feel much different as we had been living apart for over a year.  L. and I have been getting along pretty well, though we talk mostly about the kids or his family.  I went to my first steampunk convention and met up with an old, old friend.  I think if anything defines this year, it has been getting back to my roots.  I’ve spent a lot of time with the people who mean most to me, who have seen me at my best and worst over the years and we’re still friends.  I spent Thanksgiving over at my brother’s with him and his girlfriend eating delicious food and doing nothing at all.

The other big news for me is a new job that I’m not in yet.  🙂  I’m transferring into a new position, Product Management, and I’m so excited.  I will get to improve our products, talking to customers and guiding product development.  It’s something I could see myself doing for 10 years and more, because I will actually be trying to improve how we involve our customers in our business.

Because the thing I’m still trying to figure out is how to be useful, for lack of a better term.  I’m not good at being a super-efficient cog, churning out results.  In fact, it was quite the shock to get out of high school and college and realizing that a high ability to learn did not at all ensure success.  Where am I meaningful?  Where can I do good?  I’m not a great employee in the classical sense, I like to know the big picture, I like to know that I could be part of something big and good.  But I am careful in my work – slow, at least slower than some.  And in this world, where is there a place for careful work?  We admire quantity, how much can you get done in your 8.5 hours?  So I am grateful for a chance to prove myself, where my oddity might be useful and not a detriment.