The darkness, oh the darkness. Yes, I sure felt it this morning. It might have been the wake up call at 5:00 am by Nova. 🙂 Another beautiful day, too bad I was in work the whole time. And then I picked up the girls and Rowan was kind of whiny, and we were supposed to go to her first free lesson of karate tonight. We did go, I dragged her butt out and she had a blast. But after seeing what they charge for lessons, we may doing our free month and waiting until January.
Part of that is because the banks are going to lock the doors of Leif’s work on Dec 15th. So we’ll see if they move, if they start paying the mortgage, or if Leif will be looking for a new job. Ugh. But though it is a bit stressful, I don’t feel that stressed about it. He’s confident he can find something as soon as he needs to, and strangely enough, I believe him. ;-p I think this is just a big year of change, things beginning and things ending, but with such a more positive vibe than last year. Because I cannot wait for Leif to find a new job, where people actually work. Instead of picking their nose.
Rowan and I got home after her lesson and Nova had already fallen asleep. 😦 But Leif hadn’t actually changed her diaper before putting her to bed and she had Mom-radar anyway, so I changed her (with much screaming) and then we rocked. I am so grateful for my little one. There is a sweetness about her being the last. The last of my children, the last grandchild–I’m trying to enjoy it. And holding her not-so-little baby body is sweet too. I hope she and Rowan end up friends when they are adults. I want my girls to get along.
I still have a long ways to go, as far as getting my life where I want it to be. But I have a lot to be grateful for, and I am.