As I’ve mentioned before, I am sort of in a holding pattern right now due to my pregnancy. They are some things I don’t feel comfortable starting until the baby is born. And now, within the past two weeks, two great opportunities have come along–and basically due to my pregnancy I cannot jump on either of them. It makes me a little sad.
For example, my bellydance instructor was looking for people to audition for the UW spring show. I go to the UW Bellydance Spring Show every year, and would love LOVE to be up on stage like that. Yeah, I’m a ham. The spots fill up quick and it’s hard to get in, so this was a great opportunity. And I had just about convinced myself it was doable, even with the couple of weeks I’d have to take off for the birth (yes, I was being very optimistic).
However, I am planning on getting my tubes tied after the baby comes, either right after delivery or 6 weeks later (I have to make an appt. to go over the pros and cons of each). But the clincher was this muscle sprain I have-practices are beginning in December and I really have to work on my muscle as it is. It’s doubtful that intense dance practice would really help it heal.
So I had to let it go. I made my choice at the beginning of the year–what was really important to me? And having another child is very important to me, I am so grateful that everything is going so well. I have to believe that when the timing is right, the opportunities will come again, but it’s so tantalizing to have it so close and have to let it go. I am also grateful that is seems like things are indeed slowly shifting more towards how I want them to be. Even if I can’t act on them immediately, I see it as confirmation that this upcoming year is going to be better than the last–even if it will be more work.