And the Dam Broke

So I’ve been doing well overall, but the past week I’ve been pretty emotional.  In fact, in talking with my boss I have decided to decline being a supervisor for now.  It’s not that the job has changed, it’s that I’ve changed.  And I’m have a crisis of career right now.  I’m not sure this is what I want or where I want to be.  I’m not sure I could grow in a meaningful way at the company I’m at now.  There are challenges, sure, but it still seems like a lot of bullshit to me.  How exactly am I helping anyone, anyone at all at this point?  I don’t want to waste my life doing something that does not contribute to society.   This is important to me.

God, all my life is so imperfect, so far from where I want it to be.  And changing one’s self is an arduous job.

Author: ~R

I write about life, people, and the things that interest in me. Which often includes death, sex, friendship, and the future of humanity. I hope for the best in people and I prepare for the worst. But no matter what happens, change is constant and everything will be ok.

1 thought on “And the Dam Broke”

  1. “And changing one’s self is an arduous job.”
    Yes it sure is! I hear a longing though, a yearning it seems for something not quite named yet. Sometimes the hardest thing to do is to sit still long enough to see what will happen…..to just let life live through us rather than the other way around.
    Blessings to you as you search out your answers.
    rebecca

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