So in case you’ve been worried about me, you don’t need to be. I am in a strange place right now, happy but quiet about it. Some days I’ve been intensely happy. In fact, today was kind of a letdown because I felt kind of normal. For the past three days I’ve been euphoric, yet it would be strange to run outside yelling, “I love everybody! Life is the coolest thing ever!” even though that’s pretty much the way I feel.
I am on a path that may lead me far, far from where I’m starting. I don’t really want to talk about it, because it deals with my dreams and being authentic to myself. Until my outside life reflects it, it seems silly to even discuss it.
Every day is full of such new experiences. I am so happy to be alive. And yet, there is so much I want to change in my life and I finally feel resistance crumbling. Because it doesn’t matter what anyone else thinks, in the end it is just me and my choices. I have come to embrace all my so-called kooky beliefs, even if other people would laugh at me. It’s all good.